On Regrets...

Have you ever asked yourself why do we regret things that came to pass? Regret that we did something, or regret because we didn't do anything about it!

Its a complicated feeling really, questions of what might have happened if only we did the opposite of what we have done, or what could have happened if we did something and not just let it pass away.

We shed tears sometimes, because something or someone was lost for we were not able to comprehend to the situation and as it came to pass we realize what we did, and simply regret and hoped we did the other way around to justify the result of what we have done.

Sometimes, some things can be corrected, and so many things can be learned when we accept the consequences of our actions but then the feeling of regret could be compared to a knife that cuts deep in our heart and soul and there were times we are drowned by it and could no longer move on.

We are hurt, but that should not be the end, we should treat it as the start of a new beginning and accept the lessons and regard it as a wake up call, patches could be made, and the scar from the wound is a just reminder of the things that should and should not be done.

On living alone...

I thought i had already accepted the fact that i am living "ALONE", but unfortunately last night as i was preparing the dinner i served for you from my last post, it just surfaced out, i don't know how, but there comes the realization that i am living by myself, with nobody to share my blessings, my happiness and no one to share what i am eating, and its painful!

I thought acceptance is enough, but then after last night i learned accepting the fact is not it unless there is a realization, I don't know what should come first, but either way it hurts a lot, especially if living alone is not really your choice, but the consequence of your actions in the past.

I love and lost and i stood defeated, never thought of fighting back, i kept everything in my heart and hold it there. If only i had the strength and courage, if only i learned to trust, if only i learned to open up earlier, and learned the art of letting go, i shouldn't be living alone, but then it happened and there is no more anyway i can do about it.

Life is short and we should live it by the minute, but unfortunately sometimes things come up unexpectedly and we are lost. Its alright to be lost sometimes, but not be lost a long time and get disoriented, go back to the tract and continue living.

To remember past events and people is natural but we should not live in the shadows of these memories, living with the past could do you any good, there is still a present and a future.

The past is worth remembering, but do not hold on to it. There is still present and that is worth living, but the future is worth waiting.

On blogging!

I am just a new comer to the bloggers world, I just started my own blog a few weeks ago, I don't exactly know the real purpose of blogging, I just assumed that this could be an online diary, just post my personal thoughts and ideas on things that i do, hear, or see.


I am just an ordinary boy next door, living alone in an apartment, I am not a very good communicator and i don't know if i am able to connect with you, I just write things as they are presented to me, in my own perception, and on how i think of things.


I just hope that through blogging i would be able to learn to express myself better and learn to connect and become a good communicator.

Dinner is served!!!

I know i been living alone in my apartment for a long time, and i think i had already accepted that as a fact, but then as i was preparing my dinner today something struck me and shouted "Hey you are Alone!" , Well that is a reality but i know i had been avoiding that, and maybe today that feeling of emptiness just found its way and surfaced out.

Back to my dinner, hehehe sliced carrots, and tomatoes, with lettuce and a slice of pork chop and pineapple tidbits, not much but i love it!



The carrots and tomatoes are tender and a bit crispy, sweet too, I don't know if they are a good combination for a meal but at least, I know i really enjoyed it hahaha!


I love soda, and i cant finish my meal without a sip of it, they say i am addicted to it, well i hope i am not!



A twist of pineapple, well i believe they have fibers good to our digestive system, and help in flushing out toxins.



well surely it shows i enjoyed it! hahaha

And he said "You are Living"

I just would like to thank footiam for always there, reading and always leaving something for me to ponder.


Now i think i know the reason why i lingered in the past for too long. I kept my secret in my heart, shared it to no one and therefore leaving me into the darkness without no one to cling or hold on to guide me. I decided to keep it and shielded myself from others thus making me more vulnerable. I just listened to my own testimony without understanding the other part of the story.


Footiam and my blog helped me in rebuilding my life, with the help of my blog i was able to pour out whats inside me, I was able to unload the weight i had been carrying for the past years, and with footiam for leaving messages and comments that are worth thinking, and i wouldn't be able to thank you enough.


I just hope that someday in the future I will be able to find someone, the right woman for me, but as of now i am no longer looking for it, i am just waiting for i know love have its own reason and way...


My heart is no longer broken, but this is a already a part of my life and i don't want to forget that once my heart was broken, I want to remember the lessons love and life taught me, to remember the past but not live in it, learn to share and trust, learn to live life and accept the ups and down of it, for life is a journey, and its not always a smooth ride, learn to accept your weaknesses for only once you acknowledge them that you will be able to find the answers to overcome them.

Unexpected Summer Fun in Batangas

My trip to the Manila Ocean Park was just the beginning, A friend called me early in the morning as early as 2:00 am to inform me that they just arranged a trip to Batangas somewhere in Nasugbu for some water fun and i think thats great and i said i would gladly come, He instructed me to meet at them at Starbucks, I hurriedly packed my things and after 2 hours drive from Manila, we arive there just as the sun was rising. I am not a very good photographer hehehe

The rising sun and the cool breeze of the sea, perfect for a troubled heart and mind!

Floating cottages getting ready for the day!

I had my henna tattoo, before we start diving at the coral reef, the experience was fun unfortunately i wasn't able to pack my underwater camera and i could not give you pictures, only my memories dancing and playing hide and seek with the fishes hahaha...
After the dive, got some drinks at the bar and had some real fun
whoaaaa! its great to be able to go out again and have some fun...

A Day out!

After severals hours of listening to aling tuning's melody hehehe, I decided to go out for some fresh air, she was a little surprised when i told her i am going out, she asked if there was an emergency at the office and i said nothing i just wanted to go out, to have fun, and she said good luck!

I really don't know what she mean by that, as if she was implying I am no fun guy at all haha! well she had seen me in front of the computer, the television or sleeping during the weekends and maybe she thought this is a real surprise.

I haven't decided where to go, but as soon as i got my car out of the driveway i just drove away, its almost twelve in the afternoon, the heat is really suffocating, but luckily no traffic.

I thought of going to SM mall of Asia but then i saw a sign about the Manila Ocean Park and i said that could be fun.

Got a hard time parking, the place was still under construction but many people are already visiting it, mostly families with toddlers and some group of friends!

The line was long but was there was no turning back, I am here and i should enjoy myself,
finally time for me to enter, and it was really amazing, hundreds of different fish species.












It was really amazing, though the place a bit crowded, the sight is still wonderful, the awe and amazement could be seen from the eyes of every children .


The 400 pesos entrance for adults and 350 pesos for children is not much compared to the excitement of both young and young at heart.